Sunday, 27 April 2014

Lessons from my journey 36-32-36



No.  That does not refer to my physical stats. It’s the journey of my waist from size 36 to 32 and back to 36. Though the duration of size 32 waist seems like a illusion/dream which didn’t last long enough. Actually, that was a belief God gave me to prove that getting into a 32 size jeans is not impossible to achieve.  I messed it up later, that’s another story. So when anyone tries to advice me on reducing weight, I give that been there, done that look.  To be precise, I have done it and I know I can do it again.  What I need advice on is how to be committed to the diet/workout regime and the will power to do it.

I guess 90% of the obese people know how to reduce weight thanks to the internet.  The problem is commitment and the will to do it.  I still wonder how I managed to commit those three months to discipline and focus to bring about the magical shift from 80 kgs to 70 kgs………….

It all started when my Dad’s Cardiologist suggested him to a dietician to reduce weight to help him cope with the heart muscle.  So we went to the dietician Aarti Batavia for consultation. Like most  others, even I had myth about dieting.  Dieting meant less eating and depriving my body of adequate food according to me. And I had been trying to reduce my weight from ages but couldn’t come anywhere near it due to lack of commitment. I had tried gym, walking and also experimented with fasting one day hoping it might help to reduce atleast few gms of my weight.  Though have to admit, fasting was the most disastrous one. It didn’t last more than 6 hours. I was on the verge of fainting – my whole body was craving for food that my body could recognize.

                So it was amazing and convincing to listen to Aarti Batavia scientifically explain about the process of dieting and how to reach at the ideal weight. She dismissed my myth that diet meant eating less.  It actually meant eating less in more frequencies. When we can came out of her clinic, I was very upbeat about my Dad reducing his weight in next few months.  But my Dad had other things in mind. As usual, he kept his opinions to himself and was adamant that come what may he is not going to follow that crazy diet of eating mini meals every 2 hours.  He broke my fasting record – his dieting lasted for 3 hrs on first day itself.   By lunch, he was back to eating his favourite rice and coconut loaded sambhar accusing us of starving him to death by this stupid diet. Ironically, his idea of diet had led him to his death.  But I was too inspired by Aarti’s diet plan and had a hunch that it might work for me. And after few days, I was at her clinic.

                I am a typical South Indian which generally means we are economist by birth.  We always consider the cost and the benefits to decide whether we need to go ahead with a plan.  So here I was at Aarti’s clinic trying to calculate mentally the time and cost involved to knock off my excess 10 kgs accumulated over more than 10 years. It came down to 3 months and 300 bucks per session per week which roughly worked out to 4000 bucks for three months with a hope of losing 10 kgs.  Not bad.  And I was convinced by her process of losing weight.  Eating mini meals every two hours which meant I would not be deprived of food.  Her logic – your body takes 2 hours to digest a particular quantity of food, anything more than that gets converted to fat.  The game is to burn more calories than you consume. That you achieve by following  some form of exercise – walking, gym, jogging, etc… I choose walking. For 45 minutes each day.  So our plan was to get me to follow the diet and work out and check my weight every week at her clinic. The target was to knock off 1 kg every week. Thus began my race to throw off my excess baggage and finally get into a 32 size jeans.

                I know by now, you guys are desperate to read my diet schedule. Well, it just went by the Aarti’s logic of diet. She broke down my eating schedule depending on my work schedule and my hunger attacks. I started with mini meals every two hours – which consisted of not more than one spoon of oil, no coconut and no sugar.  Options were idli dosa (without coconut chutney), chapati and sabzi, sandwich (without aloo, butter, cheese and sauce), khichdi, fruits (excluding few like grapes, mango -  basically any fruit with high sugar content).  I used to have tea 5 times a day which she was generous enough to keep it at the same figure but only reduced the quantity to half a cup.  So I was having cutting chai five times a day and still not missing my cuppa of tea.  I could have sukha bhel too -  but without sev, moongfali, masala dal, aloo and puri.  The bhelwala used to feel guilty when he offered this bhel to me for 10 bucks.  He felt he was cheating me. Along with this diet, I used to walk for 45 minutes every day without fail during lunch hours in office at a nearby garden. Don’t be surprised - I was working for a government organization at that time. That was fun too.  Observing the beautiful plants, flowers, kids and also cosy couples during the walk made it much easier.

                Weight check every week at clinic included both the weighing scale and the Body Mass Index (which basically checks your relative body mass for your height).  I started seeing the results in next few weeks reducing 1 kg each week which helped me to follow the diet and walking regime more vigorously.  This routine went on well for next few weeks more and I was getting closer to my target. Then something happened one day. Got a invite for a Friend’s Wedding which meant Buffet dinner. Couldn’t avoid Friend’s wedding. It is said when a Lion tastes blood, it goes after its prey with a crazy fury. I had willed myself against going on the prowl on the wedding feast. Had decided will only eat salads and little dal and rice and come back home. But all hell broke loose when I neared the Buffet counter.

                I ate as little as possible for next few days. I dreaded my appointment with Aarti. I learnt a lesson that day on weight concept.  Your body weight reduces if you hardly eat for few days after having a feast. But your BMI doesn’t hide it.  It’s like Raja Harishchandra – always speaking the truth. My weight had reduced but BMI had increased. I didn’t have the guts to spill the beans. She smelled something fishy. She asked for my diet book (this was a book she had told me to maintain to write down each and every thing I ate and I was very honest when it came to that). She started reading my book for the preceding week.....She was fine with the first few days……...then came the day of my holy sin. It went something like this:
Breakfast : 2 Dosa
Lunch : 2 Chapatis and sabzi
Dinner : Salads
                Dal and three spoons of rice
                1 cutlet + 1 more
    2 Puris + a bowl of Paneer Makhanwala
                2 more puris
                1 Gulab Jamun + 2 more (by now she had taken out the foot ruler for hitting me)
                Bowl of Ice cream with choco sauce

                By the time she finished reading, I was looking like an innocent puppy who refused to accept the mischief he had committed. She gave me a stern look and then a smile which was more dangerous considering she was going to give me the diet schedule for the coming week.  As feared, she gave me a diet of only Dal and 2 chappatis for lunch and dinner for the coming week.  By the end of that week, I had fallen in love with dal. It seemed to be the most comforting food for me. Psychologists would have called it the Stockholm Syndrome. But it did bring out the required results, I lost 1.5 kgs by end of that week.

                Then, there was the fun people had at my expense for eating every two hours during the whole day.  My office colleagues used to come and taunt me whether I was trying to reduce weight or gain weight. Also, when it came to fruits like cherries, I had to eat only 150 gms of it and the fruitwala couldn’t give anything less than 250 gms.  So my office friends used to grab the remaining 100 gms of cherries sometimes even encroaching on my 150 gms. But it was fun eating every two hours.  Trust me, some days, my stomach would feel full and by evening I wouldn’t mind missing one or two meals.  Aarti even taught me to make simple veg soups which was yummy and easy to make (just boil vegetables of your choice with little water in cooker, cool it, grind it in mixer and boil it again with pepper, salt and coriander leaves and serve hot) and kept my stomach from growling for solid foods.

                The only trouble was during those three months, there was two meals being cooked at my home – one  for myself and other for the rest of the family. They refused to be part of my diet plan except the veg soups which they relished to finish off.

                Though I was almost reaching my target I didn’t realize the difference that much until people started commenting and asking me about my secret to the reduced weight.  Some of my friends admitted later on that they even gossiped initially doubting and attributing my lost weight to my contracting AIDS.  Our target was to bring my weight down to 67 kgs.  But at 70 kgs I was looking too lean and Aarti told me stop as any further weight loss would not look good on my body frame.

                So at 70 kgs, I realized I could get into 32 size jeans and I went shopping for 32 size jeans like a child who got permission to pick up his choice of toys. It was such a happy feeling to get into those jeans. I felt more confident and energetic.  Aarti gave me a diet which I had to follow for a lifetime including the workout of 45 minutes everyday. It wasn’t difficult and I could manage that for few weeks. One of my friends once advised me during that phase not to throw off my old clothes, I might need that in few months. Ironically, he was nasty yet right.  Don’t know when I went overboard with my diet but ended up piling more fat than what I had began with.

                My struggle for ideal weight goes on.  I guess that’s one motivating factor that’s going to permanent in my life. Like they say, sometimes the journey is more interesting than the destination itself.
               
               




Sunday, 20 April 2014

2 States of Minds - The Conflict goes on


I came out of the multiplex with a very funny and at the same time poignant feeling after watching the movie “2 States” even though I had read Chetan Bhagat’s book on which it is based, as most of his fans have. Funny – if you happen to observe all the main characters in the movie as an outsider.  Why ? Well, they all knew what’s best for them, but were trying too hard to make everyone happy except themselves. Poignant – if you could relate to any of the characters in the movie which I am sure many of us could – whether ours was an arranged or love marriage.

So what’s the whole issue with the great Indian Marriage melodrama? - We are suffocatingly attached to our families.  We don’t realize that even God cut the umbilical cord between the mother and the baby as soon as the baby is out in the open.  It’s a message from God that the baby has a life of its own. It’s no longer a part of your body. Let it live life on its own terms. Let it learn from its mistakes.

I guess Kahlil Gibran had best described a child beautifully in his book “The Prophet”.  He says every child has a soul and life of its own.  We are just a medium through which they enter the world.  We don’t own them nor do they belong to us.  Our purpose is served by bringing them into the world.  At the most, we can guide them in their life.  But the final choice is theirs to make.

But in India, our baby is our baby as long as we live or the baby lives. Children are our only chance to redeem our mistakes of the past.  And when it comes to marriage, it’s easier to get the approval of your life partner.  But a herculean task to get the same from their parents. So, let’s analyze the circus which goes on within all the characters involved in a typical Indian marriage story – arranged or love – the story remains the same.

The Boy – Boys are the most pampered in Indian Community.  So it’s no wonder unlike girls, boys get to see two sides of their parents in their life – one before marriage and one from the moment they decide to marry a girl. The parents who believe their baby is a responsible, well mannered and mature child, suddenly overnight becomes a irresponsible, careless, immature child as soon as they fall in love or insist on marrying a particular girl even in an arranged marriage. For the boys, what matters is they want to spend the rest of their life with the girl of their choice. Ideally, this should be enough.  But our upbringing is manipulated in such a way that we carry a burden of all the sacrifices during the 25-30 odd years spent on us by our parents which makes it obliging on our behalf to ensure that we keep them happy for the rest of their life.  No insurance company can beat this.  So here, the boy has to ensure that he makes his parents approve of his choice (that too happily).  And even after marriage, the boy has to balance the scales of his life with the eternal question which not a single God has been able to answer : who is right in a domestic conflict ? – the woman who dominated the first half of his lifetime or the woman who might dominate the second half. Smarter boys escape answering this million dollar question most of the times and other times, go with the answer which will bring relatively less mental assault.

The Girl  -  Most girls grow up accepting and sometimes manipulating the restricted lifestyles written for them by their mothers.  Fathers are their hero and they live in the illusion that he will agree to any thing they ask for or demand.  The bubble goes bust when it comes to making a decision for their choice of life partner. This is one decision no father is ready to accept. So  when a girl falls in love, she has to not only get her parents approvals to avoid the humiliation her parents might face at her rebellion but also to get her in laws approvals to enter their world.  And I agree unlike the boys, girls have a tough time doing this as they have to spend rest of their life in their world. So they need to ensure the relationships are built strongly rather than just created. After all, she can’t stay with strangers all her life.  Also, she already has the pain of leaving her parents after marriage. She doesn’t want to add to it by leaving them unhappily.  If you have seen the swing act in a circus, you could relate to a girl’s dilemma – the act involves the girl to let go of the swing she is holding on to and catching the swing which is offered to her. She has to do this with precision and accuracy and most importantly with the strong belief that the guy who is offering his hand to hold her is going to hold her firmly and safely land her to the other side.

The Parents – In India, the children are not children, they are possessions of the parents.  Their biggest obsession in life is to have the right to decide the life partner for their children. I mean, no parent has been able to give a justifiable reason for this obsession.  They say, they know what is right for their children.  The generation gap between parents and children are around 25 years to the least.  How can the parents decide for their children when they don’t even understand their children’s music, fashion, ambitions and lifestyles.  The law gives a 21 year old the right to marry which means he has the ability to decide his life partner.  Isn’t it demeaning to belittle children’s intelligence when you rubbish the law.  In fact, parents never decide on their own what’s best for their children.  They always do the society test to decide – what will the society / relatives say, whether this will go down well with the society.  They fail to realize that at the end of the day what will matter is the happiness of their children. They bring the undeniable and unchallengeable justification – they sacrificed their life for their children.  Agreed, but do they really want to sacrifice their children’s life for compensating their sacrifices ?

I guess we all would agree here that no matter who decides the choice of life partner, the success of the marriage is going to be depended on the two parties to the institution – the boy and the girl.  We all have seen that arranged marriages do not guarantee a success.  For that matter, neither does love marriage.  Actually, it doesn’t depend on how you married or who you are married to.  It all depends upon how far you are ready to go to make it work. It’s the biggest gamble of life.   Take it or leave it.